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One of the most poignant moments for me was the sight of a very elderly couple sat closely together near the back of a bus. The moment was short and my eyes never left them until the bus passed by and the image has returned many times since.

Your account is a keen observation that mirrors much of my own observance. I've felt somewhat like a voyeur in a living dream and within that dream one can discern the largest implication of reaction as one of a form of panicked shell-shocked reaction. That this war on the invisible enemy, that somehow is as much a war on our inability to make rational and collective decisions for a fear of misdiagnosing how to behave. As we evaluate the script being described we must individually reach conclusions and a direction; but the narrative is broken, scattershot, hypercritical and hyperinflates panic and fear over any real objectivity. So we react as stunned. Like shell shocked individuals unable to reach a point of clear thought. Zombified.

Our leaders have a plan and they'll update us by the science. Yes they'll terrify the life out of us and make themselves by their design, the only saviours that will bring salvation to the very psychological trauma they've successfully sold en-masse.

One thing I feel that is being brought to the fore and through the individual instinct of self-preservation, is an atomisation; a singularity, but with a caveat and that is although a person would naturally revert to self-preservation that here he is somehow doing everything more for the good of others. A great old thing too, if that's what happens. But sneeze in your mask and watch people flee or watch the curtains twitch across the road when someone appears at your door; as if their entry into your dwelling spells instant doom to any witness of such. Of course these same neighbours are out applauding themselves as much as any health-care worker at 7pm and surreptitiously their eyes scan for those not obeying the politically in vogue doctrine that virtue is guaranteed only to those showing it.

I was most awakened to the Covid spectacle via some personal pattern recognitions that never seemed to add up for this crisis. Initially there was far too little international effort in containment, that seemed an apparent yet crucially important mistake. You would just stop the planes. Then I thought of India where I'd spent years of travel. A country one could never really lock down. That this virus was airborne and once uncontainable there seemed an impossibility in eradicating it; like suddenly deciding that we'd get rid of the common cold or influenza viruses.

Then Sweden and even the British initial herd immunity strategy. Adding it all together and many more things on this endless list of irregularities one could only see glaring holes.

So back to those two old people on that bus. They were undoubtedly scared, but they weren't so scared to give up their independence. Oh to have lived so long and know that you aren't far away from meeting your maker. To see your skin wither and now walk slowly. To have survived all other illness, tragedy, but to have felt both youth and old age. To understand the human condition and its selfishness, but all its great offerings. To recall a past when everything was the same in condition but complicated by modernity. To comprehend the cycle of change that only a long life can appreciate. So who are you to choose for me what I want in my final hours? Who are you to take away my final decisions and proclaim such on my behalf? For if there is anything precious in life it is family. If there is anything more precious than this it is the holders of long lives who have the wisdom of its appreciation. They alone can choose their own risk, they understand mortality better than any.

I imagine them stepping off that bus and feeling between them that spirit of strength and determination, that no matter what is put in front of them, just like all that has come before, that they will fight it on their own terms.

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You should definitely start your own substack. You have an able way with words, and are so obviously a clear writer. I had been thinking about adding a paragraph about the way fear inspired paralysis, turning into an emoted virtuous altruism- with perhaps a hint of that scared shitless hypocrisy peeking out from under the veneer?

I love the image of the two old people in a bus- it possesses the sort of questioning ambiguity which draws a writer in. Here in the UK, it's generally old people who frequent the Church of England, excepting weddings, funerals and christenings. In my twenties I imagined that they were the last generation lingering for the close, only to find that there is some vestigial impulse which draws them in at the commencement of twilight.

I'm odd like that. Like the kid who always wondered what the Department Stores wold pack their Christmas boxes with. Infrequently, I would note the times of services and make an appearance every couple of years, just to check on the numbers. I actually became good friends with the local vicar and his curate, going out for drinks from time to time and visits to the cinema. The jokes about mobility scooters running out of batteries on a steep hill, belied a strange gallows humour without the omnipresent weight- entirely good-natured, relaxed and acquainted with life's realities. I experience the same- Pascal's comfort, as it were.

My great uncle was fond of quoting Denis Diderot, of stranglings and entrails- but it didn't stop him taking the King's Shilling, being a staunch royalist or being confirmed by the Bishop of Norwich on his deathbed, previously bereft of both legs, one at a time, through poor circulation. It was a bugger to get him on and off the loo- but thankfully he had home help from the NHS- our perennial godsend, the vast majority of the time. It did mean a bad back always followed a family gathering, for a while.

At least I'm well acquainted with the best place to buy a second-hand electric wheelchair locally, the next time the occasion demands it.

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Thank you for the kind words good Sir. Your flattery is well received and I must stress that it's far easier to respond to those who place their soul at the mercy of their piers than any attempt at critical writing myself.

I was reading your response and I got to pondering more about the essence and frailty of the human condition. It stems from my recent watching of "The Shawshank Redemption". I've watched it many times before and it draws my attention like thunder and lightning to a window. Some unknown magnetism that I can not describe. But it had been quite some years since the last time and many since the first.

Well there were two main contemplations that occupied my distraction and yet took no real form. Like a sense similar to trying to recall a name one knows and in this case I allowed myself to enjoy the movie and just let it come to me on some level. Then it hit me and it was quite simple after all and it was in the dialogue; its names, phrases and commentary and the realisation that well the movie was unchanged, but it had added something to my experience from any previous encounter and of course that I was some ten years older than last time around.

With the first realisation came the second and that was that suddenly I was as old as Morgan Freemans character "Red" whereupon I reflected that the first time around I was younger than any in this film. In all other sense what remained in the movie was timeless and only my perception of it was evolving and evoking further exploration of such thoughts.

So if you will permit me and with no small amount of oddness I wish to return to the two old folks on that bus and just press pause. Gathering my thoughts I'm once again struck by the scene and perhaps because on some intuitive level it ought not be happening, but its being who they are that makes me think more deeply still.

Just like the movie and the overlapping sense of time I find that now I am on that bus and I am sat with my wife of all those years and when I glance sideways I notice a man staring. I hold my wife's familiar hand tightly. The wrinkles on her fingers that have replaced her tight skin and she positions her wedding further up now, almost at the knuckle. It feels like mere moments since we married, yet its sixty years. I turn to her and her eyes meet mine and twinkle. Her eyes are largely unchanged and we smile.

So why was that man staring at us I thought. Would it be the masks we have to wear or did he recognise us? I'm positive he doesn't realise that I was him just moments ago.

I imagined myself pressing the pause button once again and the old man that had seen me staring at him appeared to wink and the bus shot on by.

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Your reply is funny. The uncle part had me thinking of "Born On The Fourth Of July"

I picked up on your post and tried to elaborate further about the idea of how we tend to group the young, disabled or old into stigmatised positions of frailty and victimhood. I imagined being in the body of an old person and wrote as if so.

What you said resonates with me and it can be elaborated upon at an acceptable age of fifty-two. Remember the past, live for today, consider the future. With that in mind I've already found that one must accord his behaviour somewhat with his age and others treat you differently based upon it. Yet in your mind, in your space, you are the same as you were when young except newer experience. Your credibility is no more diminished looking out from this place. Yet you are judged and afforded such standards based upon appearance and often false expectations of such.

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I often read your posts on Quillette with interest. This is my first visit to this site. Thanks for your candor regarding your journey on the Brexit issue. I feel like one of the worst aspects of that debate ("cruel" would not be too strong) is now surfacing in this one and about to be promoted further. That is the practice of painting the opposition as incompetent or downright evil. Is the label of "racist" in the Brexit debate that much different than "wilfully dubious and rebellious towards even the most common sense and basic restrictions" and "recalcitrant few"? I am one of the recalcitrant few you speak of. I am in my 70's and willfully (childishly? incompetently?) resist submitting my body to a largely untested new technology and the mass psychosis behind it. You are not being held hostage by me, or "to" me as you put it. This is a red herring offered to you by Big COVID, the corporations, government officials and technocrats who benefit from it. I fear a future in which my choice not to be a guinea pig puts me in an underclass that is reviled, isolated, and who knows what else.

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I completely understand your decision regarding the vaccine- it is only in the last decade or so that I've finally realised that the single most important thing which informs my political decision-making is civic libertarianism. My point would be that the paternalism by numbers which the government seems to operate under, means that they will always use the higher death numbers and hospitalisations resulting from a lack of vaccine uptake to justify their grip on their newfound authoritarian powers.

My gripe isn't with you- it's with them- you should be free to make informed decisions as to what you allow in your own body. The only thing I would suggest is making sure that you take extremely high doses of Vitamin D- I have a highly informed and well-credentialed friend who has been studying the virus effects from the start of the pandemic, who assures me that this is advisable- and this is backed up by the fact that every medical worker I know is doing the same. Obviously, please don't construe this as medical advice- allows consult your doctor on such matters- I have to say this just for all the legal pedants out there!

On the Brexit issue, one thing I find particularly amusing is the way in which American liberals try to mentally contort themselves into the position where being against the mass migration of white people can be interpreted as racist. They don't realise that there have always been warm affinities between the Eastern European peoples and the British. Without the Poles smuggling an enigma machine first to the French and then to us the entire Second World War might have taken an entirely different course, and without the contributions of Polish and Czech pilots during the Battle of Britain we would have been hard-pressed indeed.

It was always about the systemic erosion of the wages and labour participation of the working (or blue collar) class. Personally, I think Australia has got the right balance- they actually have higher rates of immigration than most other countries but none of the friction seen in other countries, particularly on the continent. The key is only allowing migration for workers the country vitally needs- because recent history teaches us that even if we send 50% of our kids to university, then there will always be skills and knowledge which our kids refuse to learn, even though they pay great money!

The other thing is that the Australian system is quite emphatic about being an Australian- migrants are expected to learn what it means to be an Australian from day one and act accordingly.

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Yeah. Is it good news or bad news that there's enough cohesion that most everybody meekly did what they were told? Depends who's doing the telling doesn't it?

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You deserve a larger audience. Brilliant as always, you see things so clearly. Thank you for this piece.

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I work at a credit union where the bulk of the members who insisted on coming to the branch during lockdown were the elderly - despite offering “to your home banking service”. We recognized the need / the social isolation our members were experiencing and pulled out the coffee machine to have that for the needy ones. Despite observing social distance (15 feet between the seating area and tellers)and having the most hygienic branch in history, we got censured in social media by a 30 something who called the health authority.

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Oh God! That's terrible! Some people have absolutely no conception of the lives others lead. Understanding the specific needs of elderly customers was virtually the second thing I was taught working in a bank. The first was learning how to deal with customers who had spent days stewing about something which annoyed them.

I think it was Kierkegaard who argued that one could never know whether one was on the side of the angels or playing for the other team. But one thing for nothing- that thirtysomething certainly wasn't working for good guys!

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it is something others are not aware of. When you think there is an angel on your shoulder, that is the time to turn your head and look at the devil whispering in your other ear. Be sure that you are listening to the right one. So easy to see in others, but much more difficult in ourselves, unless we make the effort.

PS I've been a reader of Quillette and the comments for quite some time now, and am glad to see that you have taken this up. We don't have to always agree for me to listen what you have to say.

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Most kind, and I wish more people had your attitude- it's precisely by listening to people with which one disagrees that one refines and improves one viewpoint- what we have at the moment seems to be the complete opposite of JS Mills position.

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Hi Geary, I have always been happy to see your comments on articles in Quilette, and more often than not, will find you're actually more enlightening than the author. So I'm glad to see you have your own platform and will be sure to keep visiting.

One question I have on this article, is that whilst you make a good case for not following the "experts", without thinking of what people actually want, I wondered what your thoughts are on:

a) Long Covid? And whether there is a risk that if not understood it could be a problem in itself?

b) The risk that the longer the virus is among us, the greater the chance of a variant that our vaccines do not deal with?

Thanks, Mike

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